Aims A hurs bag
Hp Memory card
mp3 Heels
A LV bag
Lose 24122009 kg
Continue and finish my studies
Buy a house
Driving license
Buy a car
Go to hongkong, taiwan, japan, australia, england and america
See a real fairy
0. 0 times I have seen your dad. 1. 1st written card you ever received. 2. We used to hav 2 hps each. lol 3. 3 times I've seen your mum? 4. 4 gifts you have given me. 5. 5 times I have been to your house. 6. The month of our anniversary. 7. 7 times we have eaten together. 8. 8 times we have said b... 9. Our fav number. 10. Our 10 fingers fit together hahaha 11. 11 promises we have broken haha 12. 12 promises we have made to each other 13. 13 is an unlucky number. 14. 14 movies we have watched. 15. I still wanna watch 2012 and new moon! 16. 16 things that you have accused me of. 17. 17 secrets I have told you. 18. The date of our anniversary. 19. Your birthday! 20. 20 times you were not able to control your temper, haha
You are the only one that fills up my heart, no matter what I was doing. Being sad or happy.
I hope things are what I thought of them to be. Shall our feelings stay through forever, or for as long as we live. <3
11:33 PM
Survived.
-Strangely enough, I feel that my memory is gettting better. Fragments of the past, ups and downs played in my brain like a broken tape every now and then.
Good thing about life is we move on.
We can't help it, we might not be able to solve it, we can't change anything. But we can move on.
-Reading The Pact, by Jodi Picoult. Storyline's too draggy and I leafed through and peeked at the end. Two things linger on my mind.
1)A new term I learn. "Sympathy pain" eg. your child scalded herself accidentallly and you feel the pain. 2)Child molest. Damn the freakos perverts. I seriously hope they do end up in the lowest level of Hell.
4:46 AM
Thursday, November 12, 2009Y
” Everyone is taught to look both ways before crossing the street and to talk quietly in the library. But no one ever learns anything that matters, like how to keep breathing when your heart breaks in half. “
How to smile to strangers when your heart is aching in pain? How to eat when you feel like your heart is being consumed by devils? How to think of something logically when your brain is constantly thinking of the pain you feel in your heart? How to stop the pain when there's obviously no cure? How do you think of solutions to matters which are obviously insignificant to the problem, the one and only problem which you want to solve but can't?
I am constantly trying to find distractions. Finding since I was 13. For 5 years. Trying to be strong.
..
I am being lessr and lesser optimistic each day. Cause miracles don't always happen. Fuck.
Oh great. I just received a call from work. Apparently somebody's son broke his arm. Here comes my distraction.
3:29 PM
Wednesday, November 4, 2009Y
Today, I read a facebook bumper sticker that said 'Girls: We bleed, non-stop, for a week every month, and don't die. You DON'T wanna screw with us.' It took me a minute to realize that not only was that the truth, that I was a girl, and therefore extremely badass. MLIA.
Hello, i want to meet a fairy and i am serious, seriously serious.
10:33 PM
Betrayed by people, friends, countless times in my life.
As much as my mind telling me those people aren't worth to think about, my heart still hurts once in a while when my brain starts rewinding the memory tape.
For people who say techno sucks.
Let me tell you why techno DON'T SUCK.
You listened to this chinese song. The lyrics reminds you of everything you did. Describe exactly how you feel at a certain moment.Even worse, all the negative feelings from that incident come back. Initially your mood was good. Because of this, you're feeling like shit. Your day ruined.
Techno doesn't have any (real)lyrics. No emotions at all. Techno is neutral. It doesn't let your mind think about any sad incidents of the past, yet it doesn't let your mind wander.
